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i am so damn disturbed [Sunday November 1, 7pm] by something recent. now i know how f felt. LOLOLOLOL. but seriously if i'd been the wildchild i was way back then, i'd jeopardise everything =/ post

just breathe [Thursday October 29, 6pm] it's a very simple action we do daily, and so understated in its purpose. we breathe to keep the balance in gaseous exchange in our bodies, why not for our heart, mind and soul as well? and when i learnt to do absolutely nothing and just breathe, my perception of the world around me opened up. and when i mean nothing, i seriously meant nothing. not thinking, not doing, not feeling. but breeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaathe. it's as if it's enlightenment, like neo in the matrix. LOL. just breeeeeeaaaaaaaathhheeeeeeeeeee. post

heart vs mind [Monday October 26, 11pm] "i warned you didnt i?" that's what she said. the ultimate truth, the mind always wins. but what can you do about a person who's life is mostly run by her heart? her motivation for everything comes from her heart. she can only try her best to appear unenticing to protect herself. like a skunk or a porcupine. but that does not stop the heart from wanting to do whatever bloody hell it wants. that's right, she's a strong person. strong about her passions, but her mind is weak. call her weak. call her dishonest. the truth of the matter was her heart had began wandering the first few times she saw you. her mind had given logical explanations--attraction is a very human thing, with time she's gonna see this as simply the start of a wonderful story about two bosom buddies. damage control seem smooth on the surface, but she didnt know it had gotten this deep. deep enough to somehow cause pain. what her bestie said was true to some extent. while whatever she did with you can be explained as nothing but 2 very like minded friends, many a time it was driven by something else. but dont worry, she knew the consequences. she saw them coming. she knew what she had to do to stop things from getting worse. she knew it in her she's nothing you'd ever wanted or needed and she will never change simply to conform to your desires. she agreed with her mind it was like oil and water. both can be side by side, the ways they could flow together was limitless. but they will never become one. oil is oil, water is water. she'll heal. it's nothing it's really nothing. up till now she's confused about what she's upset about. she ony knows it's more than what she'd claimed in your face. she doesnt know what she wants. it's not your fault. she's selfish, even her best friend says so. you know what? maybe it's because her pride's wounded. either that or what she felt was real. please excuse her for acting weird. to tell you the truth, she's the one who cannot pretend things remain unchanged. she's become overtly sensitive, paranoid and very pessimistic about what the future may bring for your friendship. as of now, just remember she's healing. and...well she'll be back. apologies for any inconvenience caused. post

[Sunday October 18, 10am] i will never tell; because your existence is more important than my mental health. i'll get by; o.d. myself with lousy alternatives till i'm high and dry. post

the confused child speaks [Sunday August 30, 10pm] so if a person likes solitude but has a certain degree of phobia towards being left behind or leaving behind/forgetting people, what do you call such ironic behavior? and today i wonder if i were to completely disappear from everyone, including complete lack of activity on the net as well, how long does it take for someone to realise my absence. post

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